Some Places I Like

I don't even remember where these came from anymore. But I keep lots of images of rooms and houses I like in a big file on my work computer, and my last day of work is tomorrow. So they are getting dumped here. Those four look nice all together.

Rural Fantasies

The weather was beautiful yesterday, and so of course we went to the park. What else would we do? Sitting on a blanket in the grass, watching people play with their dogs, thinking about the parsley seeds I'd just gotten, and seeing, out of the corner of my eye, E playing wiffle ball I thought about this idea I've always had: That if I could live somewhere or somehow closer to plants and animals, and be a little bit quieter and more patient, pay more attention to a few people I know I love, this would be a good life. This would make me happy. And I wondered if I am moving closer to that life, or farther and farther away from it. Maybe I'll never really live that way, but the thought will animate the things I choose to do, or think about.

Maybe it will always be my idea of escape; the refuge I could take if I wanted to, but that I will always move away from in the end. Maybe I'll just keep it in my mind.

Or maybe I'll end up a goat farmer.

50 Things Before I Go, 1-10

1) The New York Public Library. For reading, for studying, for thinking, for taking a walk, for visiting my dad, for seeing a beautiful building, for being in the presence of books and books and books.



2) The Bohemian Hall and Beer Garden. I didn't go to the Astoria Beer Garden at all last year. I will not make that mistake again.

3) The Catskills. My favorite little big mountain range.

4) Celebrate Brooklyn. When I was a kid my parents would bring me, and they would sit on a blanket and drink beer while I ran around and danced with other kids I had just met, and would never see again. When it gets dark there are fireflies.

5) Magnolias at BBG. For me, magnolias aren't the plant whose flowering signals the start of Spring, but the plant whose flowering confirms that we are really in Spring. It's not just starting; it's here. The Brooklyn Botanic Garden has such spectacular ones-- especially the star magnolias, which you don't see people growing in their yards very often.

6) Brooklyn Brownstones. Not really something to do or see. Just something to pay attention to.

7) My Parents. I've never lived so far away from them in my entire life.

8) The Cloisters. This place always felt transformative and magical to me when I was little. They have a great garden, too.

9) Root Vegetables. I know-- they aren't in season now, and you can get them in the Bay Area, but still... They make me think of the Autumns I will be missing from now on.

10) Coney Island. My favorite place in the world, or one of them.

Sunnier...

...but conflicted.

Moody

Maybe it's pretty there...

The Chicago Conservatory

Chicago Sunset

Chicago Cultural Center

Toothache

Why do my lower teeth hurt after I have been coughing for days? Why is the coughing for days not enough? Why is everyone sick right now?

No reason, I know.

Soon we'll all be well again, and it will be even sweeter because we were sick. Soon it will be my birthday, and after that it will be Spring, and then it will be green and blue and yellow and not gray and gray and gray. Soon, soon.